a hell of a day

I have so much to say but I need to get this off my chest... so a more in depth blog is to come... first of all we found out we were pregnant yesterday... and I was going to blog all about it tomorrow because I have been so excited all day but tonight Prince Charming Started to bleed again... and I am just not feeling hopeful anymore... I thought that for sure we would have a healthy pregnancy and that the last miscarriage was a fluke... I feel Like I have to be strong for her so here I sit bawling after the house sleeps... so what was gonna be a super great blog, again ends in great heartache and pain... and to top it off I am babysitting my cousins kids tonight and the baby screamed all night... leaving me thinking maybe I am not cut out for this... because all i wanted to do was start crying with him....