2 lovely sights, Rated PG13

This Blog Entry is Rated PG 13 for mention of Boobies...

Last night I had two amazing sights... The First was when Prince Charming came out of the bathroom topless to show me that the Ginormo boob is back... in order to understand the significance of said Ginormo boob, you need a little history on the subject matter... You see last time when we tried we experienced the Ginormo boob... this is something that we have never noticed before, but one boob the right if you must know, seems to triple in size over night... leaving one normal boob and one Ginormo boob... now we are not for sure that this is pregnancy related because last time we tried was the first time it had ever happened. However we think it may be a good sign... so imagine my excitement when I got to not only see boobies, but the GINORMO BOOB...

My second amazing sight was this beautiful sunset in our front yard last night... not only was it beautiful, but the moon made it amazing... Here, see for yourself!

It only takes one...

Christmas, oh how I love hate you... you see every year I get so excited that you are coming again... and I pull out the tree the beginning of November, and fill our home with the holiday spirit and cheer... I go all out you see... I mean I really decorate... and then it gets to about a week before Christmas, and I want to rip it all down, because the stress of the holidays mixed with the Cluttered holiday decor, makes me CRAZY...  that's why Yesterday before noon... My house was dechristmasfied, and I have a clean cozy living room to enjoy again... plus my birthday is in 8 days and I hate having Christmas stuff anywhere around my birthday... you would be that way to if your birthday had always been a Christmas after thought...  But Christmas this year as busy and stressful as it was, was very rewarding and fun... I don't think I have mentioned Gram yet, but she a very tiny 86 year old Japanese woman, who sometimes drives me completely insane but most of the time is the most amazing woman... She is Prince Charmings Grandma, and we have been taking care of her in our home for about a year now... Unfortunately the day before we found out we were preg last time the hospice doctor told us that gram very likely will not be around next Christmas, and although I don't like that, and choose to believe that she will be here for another, we made sure this Christmas was extra special for her... We always make jokes and say taking care of grandma was like we had a kid but we never got those cute cuddly years, but this Christmas it rang very true... she looked like a child wide eyed and so excited as we carried prob 20 gifts into her room for opening... It was so fun to see her excitement as she opened each gift... She had never really had a BIG Christmas till this year, and I couldn't help but tear up when in her very broken english, she told me that she felt like she had just had 10 Christmas's... It made all the stress of putting up with Prince Charmings mom well worth it, (maybe someday I will explain the Crazy woman that somehow bore my wonderful Prince Charming, but she  makes a prozac nervous, and my life Hell).

Grandma with her new Princess Phone...

 Hope giving a Christmas Cheer

Our Babies were Tired after playing with all the Toys they got

Hope and I Christmas day

And at the end of the LONG DAY... Whats better than a Silly Pic! 

Okay now that we got that out of the way... it's time for the good stuff... Baby Making has been attempted, and we are both very peaceful... we decided to make a bet to see who could go the longest without asking to take a pregnancy test... Prince Charming gets a meal at her favorite Mexican place if she wins, I get a Steak dinner if I win... I can already taste that Outback steak, and Garlic Mash... yumm... My thought on this is that hopefully the winner will also be rewarded with a positive test and we can celebrate with the meal! I am just hoping that the Holiday Magic  will be our Baby Dust, and make this a sticky little baby!!! After all it only takes one little swimmer to make our dreams come true!

Christmas came early

So Christmas came early yesterday when Prince Charming called me into the bathroom to tell me that the Baby Making train had Arrived... that's right she spiked yesterday and Thank god our donor hadn't left town yet... but now here I sit praying that he makes it back in time for one more try within the window... she is for sure ovulating today so hopefully some little swimmers were hanging out this morning, but I am hoping we get one more shot at it before our time frame is up!

All that to say MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ME... I don't have to wait for that again for a while! lol... Now we will move onto the 2ww, which I have decided to turn into a little game with myself... Last time we went crazy with pregnancy test and got our first faint line at 5dpo... then took several test a day until it was bright and the digital was screaming it... talk about stressful... we never let ourselves relax... it was constant testing and worrying... so this time... I have a plan... now hopefully I can stick with it lol!!! I know you are thinking hurry up and tell us the plan... well here it is...

Last time we got a pretty clear line at about 8 or 9 dpo... My Birthday just happens to be in about ummm 10 days... So My first plan is not to take a test until at least then... Then my other plan is to try my hardest, not to worry everyday...

And so the Journey CONTINUES!!!

Happy Holidays and Thank You...

as I sit here this morning reading fellow bloggers post, I find more comfort than these people will ever know... well except for I am about to tell them...Let me begin by saying I am new to the whole blogging world so I don't know how to do all the cute linky stuff so maybe they will see this and maybe they won't but it means enough to me to share...

First of all "Our Simple Lives"... His latest blog shared all the hussle and busstle associated with the Holidays and how many things he has going on with his precious kiddos, I found myself getting sad, and then had to take a step back and remember that one day he too longed for his miracle babies... and he is getting to enjoy the fruits of his labor... lol get it LABOR, okay I am prob the only one that finds that comical... but it made me want to get to that point even more, and it inspired me to think of it a little more like a journey not a sprint...

"Looking for Baby" was the first person to friend me, and I find such joy in hearing all the good news they are getting... I find myself excited to find out what the gender reveal reveals and can't wait to congratulate them... but they have had a long road as well... another reminder that it's a journey not a race... I must say thank you for your kind words of encouragement, and just taking the time to encourage me... I really needed it and it was so appreciated...

"Paradykes" I have shared your story with many... You inspire me to be a better person... You showed a love and kindness that is amazing... I am so excited that we are ttc at the same time... I am inspired by your generosity, and love, and selflessness... We want to be like you guys when we grow up... lol!!!

Also thank you to: 2 baby daddies, Jeff and Kevin Dc, & Micaels surrogate Experiance...

It amazes me that I have found "friends" if you would say that... that are from all over the place that all are on different pages in there story, but can help each other in such a big way... I would even go as far as to say that this Branch on my tree is going to prove to be very fruitful... SO Happy Holidays and Thank you...

O mystery

The Big O Mystery... I feel as if I am going nuts waiting for the big O to come again... I know that it will happen, but I feel anxious everyday that we will miss it... the funny part about all this is that I am not scared that it won't work, or that we will have to try again... I can handle that... But I don't want to miss the opportunity to try this month... Silly I know, but I have to stress about something, or else I would just not be Me!

A new love

I hate to say that anything good came out of the loss of belly fish, but I have to say that the Love that I feel for My Prince Charming, is amazing... She has been so Amazing, and we have grown so much closer through this. We have always said we are a great team, we will figure any problem out... we may bicker about the right solution, and which way is more effective, but we have conquered much in our 4 years together... moving 5 times, career changes, a wedding, death, and many other things. We have been so broke we ate once a day and that was Ramon, and we have been blessed enough to open our home up to friends. But at the end of the day we ALWAYS make it... This experience was a little different than others in the past... we Tag teamed it as unflattering as that sounds, it was just pure teamwork... When she was sad I was there to smile and tell her it is all gonna be okay, and when I feel sad she is my rock and tells me that the future has our baby in it... I Love my Prince Charming, and I can't wait to share the rest of my life loving her more and more... WE WILL HAVE A FAMILY... and because I know her... I have been changed for good...

Our Broken Hearts...

Sat morning as I sat down to right a blog I heard prince charming call my Name in a panicked voice. As I ran to the bathroom, I found her with tears in her eyes... She was bleeding... I went into crazy calm mode and told her to get dressed and that everything was going to be okay... I drove her to the hospital, but unfortunately our fears were confirmed, we lost our bellyfish... we are heartbroken and sad... it all seemed so easy... until now... I am not sure what I am supposed to do now, all I find comfort in is knowing we will try again.

longer than the 2 week wait....

I am shocked at how slow time is going by... I am ready to be out of this first trimester and feel "safe" we are at 5 weeks and 2 days and it seems like everyday has 48 hours in it... we have our first appointment  with the ob on Thursday and it can't come soon enough...

Weekend of sharing the good news

This weekend we got to share our good news with a few close friends and family... Here are some photo's from this weekend...

For Crying/Laughing Out Loud...

Oh Prince Charming... What are we gonna do with her... She is a raging ball of hormones, and just doesn't know what to do with her self... Let me paint a picture for you... before Bellyfish, My Prince Charming could be nicknamed Mellow Yellow, don't get the wrong idea she gets frustrated and upset but for the most part, she is easy going and easy to please... we suspected that she might be pregnant a few weeks ago when I ask her if she had eaten something that I was planning to use to make dinner and she had a complete melt down over it... accompanied with a screaming tantrum, slamming doors, and knocking over everything in her path as she quickly exited the scene... Me completely shocked by this odd behavior, laughed and thought hum-mm hormones?... Well let me tell you, they are in full swing... today we went to a store and as we were getting ready to get out of the car she seemed really mad... I ask her what was wrong and she started gripping at me about me being a girl...like i have any say in that, lol... then she starts crying telling me that she just feels so emotional, I being the ever so sympathetic wife(bad wife,lol) start laughing at her because this fit is just so ridiculous... she then starts to laugh at herself and laughs so hard that she starts bawling again... thru her tears she said something about this is supposed to get better after the first trimester... and all I could think was THAT IS 7 WEEKS AWAY... For Crying/laughing out loud I love this girl... ha ha ha!

Mommy

It has been a very emotional couple of days, I have felt more emotions the past few days than I think I have in my whole lifetime... excitement, joy, fear,  love, hate, and many more I am sure... It amazes me that I can love something so much before it even has a heartbeat, It has stolen my heart. Worry, Lord do I worry, I worry that I won't know how to do things, or that I will do something wrong... I fear for my Prince Charming and how she is doing and if she is gonna have a tough pregnancy. Love, boy oh boy, do I feel love... The Love of my life is carrying my Bellyfish... I have always adored her and think she is the most Handsome Prince in all the land, but now that she is carrying our Bellyfsh she is so Beautiful, I see a softness in her features, maybe I am just an emotional mess, but she is so stinking Beautiful... Hate, okay I know that is a strong word so I will say STRONGLY DISLIKE... I strongly dislike when you are sharing the news about the most amazing thing in your life, and people make it all about them... But most of all I just feel fortunate... I know how long people try, and at what great links they go to, to even get to this point in the journey, and I am thankful that we were blessed on the first try... 

Heavy Bread

So tonight when my Prince Charming was on her way home from work she called because she was a sweetheart and had stopped at the store to pick up a few things. While seeing if there was anything else that I needed, I ask her how she was feeling... The conversation went something like this...

Her " I am really tired"
Me "Honey I am sure you are gonna be tired, your body is going thru a lot"
Her "Even the Bread is Heavy"
Me "did you just say the bread was heavy?"
Her "I have it in the same hand as my phone...

All I could do was laugh... the next 9 months should be fun, and Yes i made her Pose for a Picture to make it even better lol...

We have a Belly Fish...

Let me begin by telling you that I never in my life thought my life would turn out the way it has... but let me also say... I am the SO HAPPY that my life took unexpected turns... because the path I took is INCREDIBLE... I not only have the most AMAZING wife ever, but we are preggers, or with Bellyfish as I like to say! To make the story even more amazing... We achieved Bellyfish on our first try, and we did it at home... we found out yesterday, and it just seems like I am dreaming... my prince charming is having a baby...