My Blog of Many Colors...

 Prince Charmings Grandpa Passed away today... Unfortunately she had to make a very strong decision today, and  take him off of life support... he went into the hospital a few days ago and they were trying to fight the infection he had and so we agreed to let them put him on life support while they tried to eliminate the infection. However today when she talked to the doctor it was clear that he was not going to get better and that he was getting worse even on the life support. She instructed them to honor his wishes of no machines and he passed when they disconnected him... Charming amazes me more and more each time we encounter a stressful situation... she is so strong, and I am so proud of her strength in this situation... We decided that it is probably best that we not tell Gram, I know to some that may sound cruel, but she hasn't been able to see him in over a year and we are not sure how much longer we will have her for, and neither one of us want to see her get sad or have a reason to feel like giving up... what she doesn't know won't hurt her... at least that is how I feel...
      With all the events leading up to today, and today, we have been trying to make sure we are spending extra time with Gram. We talked tonight about getting her the finest sheets that we can find for her hospital bed (they are bringing it in on sat), and getting her a dawn comforter... and we are going to buy a few Disney Earth movies and bring one of her cozy chairs into the living room and watch it with her on our 72 inch TV... I want to buy her the finest bottle of wine and sit and drink it with her... we both just want to make sure that she has the best last days of her life... One thing that I have been trying to do lately is capture memories to last Prince Charming a lifetime. so when I walked by the room tonight and saw this... It made me smile and I ran for my camera...Prince Charming was sitting on the floor "watching TV" with gram ( I think after the day she had she was doing a little more watching of Gram than of the TV).


  af·ghan [ áf gàn ]

1. blanket: a knitted or crocheted blanket or shawl, often with geometric designs
2. carpet: a large carpet woven in a geometric design

         What a weird freaking word... Sorry, you know you were all thinking it... but anyhow... I made one.... a while ago actually but I just finished my second one, and we have been using the first one I made on the bed... so I thought I might show it off just because. It's special to me... It was the first blanket I ever made, and it fits on our King... I just used scraps and started it one day and it turned out just perfect... for me at least... 

 This next blanket however was a totally different story... it started as one thing ended as something totally different... I started this blanket as a baby blanket for Belly Fish... I hesitated to start it when we found out Prince Charming was pregnant, but I was just so excited I started it... I went and picked out colors that could work for either gender, and then I began... I made a small portion of the blanket here and there over the next few weeks... then the miscarriage happened, and I actually almost threw the whole thing in the trash that day when we came home from the hospital... but Prince Charming stopped me and put it in the closet... I have seen it many times sitting in the bottom of the closet, and just ignored it... but after I made my "before I am 30" goal list, I knew that I would have to face it eventually... so I finished the lamps, and the mirror, and then decided that I was gonna tackle it... when I started this blanket, I had a very set idea of what this blanket would be used for and what it would look like and it was going to be perfection for MY BABY...  but as I began to work on it this time, It became a new idea, it became a blanket that Prince Charming and I can cuddle up on the couch with now, and when she is prego. it became a reminder that having a baby is a journey not a race... I was so excited to make it that I raced into starting it... and then after... it felt tainted... but now it feels like a blanket of Hope (no pun intended. However, it is funny!) and a blanket of joy... I even changed the pattern as I went because you can't always put a pattern on things in life... and so as the journey of the blanket changed so did the pattern... who knew that finishing something like that could be so therapeutic... but It is my Blanket of Many colors that I Made JUST FOR ME... (any Dolly fans out there get that?)

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And then I will Bring your attention (if you are even still reading this) to exhibit A... in this photo you will see a wide array of items including several bath and body works, items... Before Prince Charming I never really had "BIG  GIRL" perfume, but I always had a wide variety of Bath and Body works Products because when you are young and poor you think $60 bucks for a bottle of "BIG GIRL" perfume... I could get 6 bottles of body spray for that... and so you do... but since being with Prince Charming, I have a collection including fragrances like Happy, Burberry, Viva la Juicy, Very Sexy and Tease.  I am by no means proclaiming that these are outrageously expensive or trying to sound materialistic, but to me these are "Big Girl" perfumes...  So today while cleaning our bedroom I found a bottle of Bath and Body Works lotion and it was in my way... and that's when it happened... It clicked... I looked at my shelf and the ungodly amount of Bath and Body works stuff I had and how all my "Big Girl" perfume looked squashed and mistreated... and the cleaning commenced... I grabbed a trash bag and a basket for my get rid of list... and this is what I ended up with... Lots of lotion and body sprays, a few random pencils, a package of random key rings, a few bracelets, a bible (don't freak out I have like 10... valedictorian of bible school here), and a ceramic flower... so that's 23 things off of my 365 to get rid of before 30...and my bedroom is now very organized...
                     And While we are on the topic of checking things off of my list...Prince Charming had a rough day today, so she went to bed several hours ago and I wanted to do something to make her smile in the morning... So I wrote "I Love You So Much! in Post it Notes  ( who doesn't love them some Post it Notes?)... so that when she gets up at the butt crack of dawn, she will see this! This is going to be one of my "do 30 random acts of love for Prince Charming"!

 I also put together what I am going to call a "Phone Dump"... with pictures that I have taken with my Phone, hence the name... you get the point... anywho... I take pictures with my phone enough that I should be able to have "Phone Dumps" periodically... and since I have already turned this into the worlds longest post, and lost all followers as well as earning the nickname "Long Winded Wendy" from all the queens... I will just proceed with my "Phone Dump"... I have the luxury of being a stay at home "MOM" for our Puppies... so like any proud mother my phone is full of random pictures of my kiddos... Honest (he is the Mastiff) can be caught in a large array of sleeping poses and is almost always still enough to get a great picture... Truely (the Black Lab) is a beautiful girl and she knows it... but she is my prancer... she is so much fun to play with, however Miss Social Butterfly makes taking flattering pictures of her a little more difficult... but I still manage to get a few here and there... then there is a picture of Prince Charming from the other day when we were going to the "Super Flea" (the Super Flea here is like a magical land where you can find all kinds of cool treasures if you really look... think Little Mermaid when she is down in the cavern... they have gadgets and gizmos a plenty they have whos its and whats its galore, you want thing-a-ma-bobs they got 20... no but seriously they have everything...) and she was looking super cute and I took that picture of her while she was driving... kinda Artsy... I like it...and then there is one of me from when I was sending our friend a picture of me wearing a scarf that he gave to me...

As if this entry hasn't already been random enough for you... I took this picture on my birthday because when I woke up that morning this was sitting on the kitchen table... My wife got up at 2am to go to the store to make sure that she would have a present waiting for me when I woke up in the morning... The flowers were So Pretty... I just needed to make sure I documented them... which brings me to my next point I guess you could say...
     When I started this blog I told Prince Charming that if I kept up with it like I wanted to... that after the baby was born that I would like to publish my Journey for us to keep forever... and one day share with our children... I would have loved to be able to read a journal about how My mom's life was when she was pregnant with me, and all her thoughts and milestones... I just thought it would be a cool idea... well I didn't know how cool of an idea it would turn out to be, but... Prince Charming has began to tell her side of the story... She started a sister blog to mine called "Charming Cindarella" and the goal is to publish them together so that it will document both of our journey...she is now one of my followers so if you guys want to you can check out her side of this Fairytale..."Be Our Guest'! ( I am killing you with the Disney references tonight I know!!) (But Seriously you should add her!)
     I Guess what I have to say now is for our future Child or Children... If you are reading this then that means that you Mommies did something VERY cool, and we followed thru on what feels like a HUGE commitment to me... a whole year of actually sticking with something... you will see what I am talking about... if you haven't already... but this commitment is nothing compared to the commitment we will be making when we bring you into this world... don't ever take lightly the fact that you are here... we want/wanted (if you are reading this... ) you so bad and I hope that you enjoy learning about how much love went into making and then waiting for you to be the biggest commitment of our lives...